Christmas time!!!!

Wow what a crazy month this has been. Not only did i have everything all set up and ready for Christmas on December 2nd but then we decided to suddenly pick up and move to Springville.... I was telling myself, "This wont be so bad i don't have that much stuff to move, how hard could it be?" HAHAH wow well let me tell you, having your husband work at RC Willey where he has access to great deals on TVs and Couches and beds an all that fun stuff you collect a TON of stuff in just over a year and a half!

After a week of packing and moving and getting all settled in we are finally in our "home" because now that everything is unpacked it really feels like home. its great!!

While unfortunately i will not be celebrating an announcement of pregnancy this month i will be excited to announce that for an early birthday present Trav bought me the cutest KITTY!!! she is adorable, she is an orange tabby, with gorgeous green eyes!! i love her so much... sadly she is still without a name... nothing is fitting her just right so we are still on the look out for one, any suggestions would be appreciated :)

Being in this new place is great! Me and Trav and been wanting a change of scenery and what do you know it came for FREE!!!

I haven't gotten many pictures of the place yet but once i clean a little more then ill take pics and post them :) for now i just have some of the outside of the house, a few Christmas crafts i did with the help of Travis' mom, and my cute little nameless kitty!!! so here you are with some fun pics.

The Naughty and Nice blocks that we made... they were so much fun

This one isnt all the way finished, its the North Pole, where you can hang your stockings if you dont have a fireplace... i havent made the North Pole sign yet.

This is our cute little Christmas tree!! since we werent able to cut one down this year we got this at Wal-Mart

My cute little kitty.... she has the prettiest fur! She has spots like a leopard on her sides and then stripes on her legs and tail. and she has long pointy ears and the cutest big eyes

She is still really little so its hard to get a got face shot of her, she doesnt sit still for very long!

This is the front of the house

the driveway is the devil with snow and ice...

This is the backyard, (before all the snow came, we have TONZ OF IT!!) the backyard is beautiful we have a mountain in it!!

This is our side entrance since we live in the basement!

so ya, new pictures of the inside soon to come!

Merry Christmas everyone!!

MOVING!!!!

Yes its really true, we are really moving!
Trav's parents are moving into a house in Springville that has a basement apartment with separate entrance and everything!!!
The apartment is 3 bedroom, 1 bath and they asked us to live there for FREE!!!!
Since Trav's dad isnt around all the time my father-in-law wants someone to be there in case of any accidents for his grandpa, who lives with them.
This is such a great opportunity for us, we have our on private little apartment but are also close by if we want to visit family.
Plus the no rent thing is an amazing blessing, it will help us so much to get Trav through school and also to prepare us even more for a baby, when the time finally comes. We are so excited and are going to start moving in Friday/Saturday, hopefully.
An awesome thing about this house, is the backyard is a mountain.... free to roam. its so cool i will post pictures soon.

Half an update...

Well i went and got the test (Hysterosalpingogram.. yeah say that 5 times fast) done yesterday and let me just say it was nothing like i thought it would be.... As the nurse was explaining to me what was going to be going on i just stared at her and was thinking really?? hahah. it honestly wasn't so bad, it just wasn't what i was expecting.... and it hurt... oh did it hurt.... not to be graphic or crude or anything but you know the little metal spread they use when you go to get a premarital exam? yeah this thing was twice as big and after it was in he cranked the thing wide open.... it was like being dilated to a 5 i swear!!! it hurt and after he inserted the tube for the dye... he pulled out the metal spread and when he did that, he yanked out the tube.... so he had to go in and do it AGAIN!!!! :( ouch

After everything was in and good, he took the x-ray and showed me my uterus and the tube... it was really cool to see this big dark puddle of fluid being sucked up into a tube and then spill back out again... yes that means that my one and only tube is in fact OPEN. Which makes the thought pop into my head, " then why am i not getting pregnant? what else is wrong?"

After we did the X-Ray and saw the tube was open the Radiologist left and the nurse told me i could go clean up, she also warned me that i might have some menstrual cramping, hahah might?? holy Hannah i had such bad cramps after i left the hospital i felt like i was going to vomit!!! they hurt so bad! Plus i had to be to work in an hour after leaving the hospital, and while at work i had a small fever... it was not fun, but with the help of some extra strength Tylenol i was as good as new by the end of the night.

Now i am waiting patiently for my OB/GYN to call me back and tell me what the next step is.

It feels great finally doing something about this no baby nonsense. I just hope i don't have to wait another year or even 6 months. But i am hopeful, very hopeful :) Thanks for all the support, ill let you know what my doctor has planned for us next!

The last one....

I am now the last one of all the people i knew struggling with infertility problems to be pregnant.... and it sucks! To be the last one, to feel all alone, is not the best feeling in the world. Don't get me wrong i am so SO happy and thrilled for those who struggled and can finally take a breath and enjoy the sunshine after their tough storm. Congrats to everyone who was struggling and is now pregnant! i envy you!!! I really do... i want to be throwing my guts up, i wanna be stuck in bed feeling like crap for 9 months if it means i get to be pregnant.... i want it that bad. It will be a year on Jan 13 that i lost the baby.... and i cant believe its been that long and still no luck. I called yesterday to my OB/GYN and scheduled an appointment at the hospital to get that test done on Wednesday morning. The one where they go in and fill the tubes ( or tube in my case) with a florescent colored fluid and take an ultra sound to see and made sure that my fallopian tube is open, and not shut( at least i think that's what they do, I'm not quite sure on the details yet, i just know its a step closer to a baby!). Maybe after this test i will finally be able to figure out the delay. Almost one year since the miscarriage, and almost a year and a half since we started trying to expand our family. Will the pain ever end? will i finally catch a break? This is my life right now and I'm not wasting it by sitting around being sorry for myself because I'm not pregnant, in no way am i doing that, it just feels nice to write my feelings and frustrations out, so that maybe anyone else going through the same thing doesn't feel alone, i know i found a lot of you that had some of the same struggles i did... and lucky you, all that i know of you are now expecting babies :) I am desperately hoping to someday soon join you girls! So good luck ladies i wish you all the best and am excited to hear about your progress in your pregnancies!! I'll keep updated on what i find out tomorrow from the test.

Ps. i changed my blog backround again... what do you think? is it a keeper? :)

Just another post

To start off, let me just say that i love my family!! All of them! Thanksgiving was great, it was hosted by my grandpa and grandma de Hoyos this year because my moms kitchen is currently in construction.... its crazy. Thanksgiving morning we started up the morning for our yearly tradition, cutting down our Christmas tree on thanksgiving and bringing it home.... well this year thats not really how it played out. There was so much snow up in the mountains that Trav and i got stuck in the snow, even with the four wheel drive and dragging a trailer to kinda help us out the sun was out to get us and we drove right into a big pile of snow off the side of the road... haha no worries we had plenty of big strong men there to help us out. After we finally got the car out and made a nice snow packed parking space we just got out and played around on the snowmobile Trav had borrowed from his dad and played around on that. My brother and his brother-in-law had brought their snowboards and my parents brought sleds. The temp. that morning up in the mountains was -13 degrees.... it was FREEZING and going fast on that snowmobile didnt make it any warmer. But man what a blast it was riding on that thing! There was a road going up by where we parked so we would use the snowmobile to drag sledders or snowboarders up and let the snowboarders off to ride down, while dragging the sledders down behind the snowmobile, it was lots of fun.

Trav pulling Dylan
Tori not ready to com out into the cold..
getting all bundled up

Aww mom and dad, (Nana and Pa)

Tori, me, and trav, the dork not looking at the camera, going on a snowmobile ride!! brrrr ( the helmet was amazing, i didnt feel ANY wind on my face!!)

Sadly because we got stuck so far down we didnt make it to any place close of having Christmas trees. :( So we left without one, and are trying to decide now if we want a fake one, or go back up and try to cut one down.... im opting for the fake tree....

Trav taking Marisa and Cassie on a ride while pulling Nick and Tc on snowboards behind

Marisa wearing the helmet haha

Cassie, Marisa, Travis

There are so many things that i am grateful for that to list them all on this post would take far too long. I am just so grateful for all that i have and all that i have learned and gone through in my almost 21 years of life... :) I have learned lots and keep learning everyday. I know that there is a special plan for all of us and that everything happens for a specific reason, and that we may never really know that reason.... oh how i wish that the right time would be my time.... i still long to get pregnant. And this month i am actually going to go to the hospital and finally have that test done on my tube to make sure its not closed off... then hopefully we can progress in the direction of me having a baby.... i just cant wait for it to happen anymore, it almost been a year since the miscarriage and i dont wanna just sit back and wait any longer, i want that blessing of parenthood.

But as for right now i am grateful for how much time me and Travis get to share with each other, we have such a great relationship, and marriage because of how close we are and that comes with how much time we get to be with each other to enjoy one another and just have fun with life. And i am so very grateful to have him right beside me to go through all our struggles together. November is the month of being thankful and realizing what your thankful for, Travis was born in November, and i couldn't be thankful for anything more than Travis!! :D i love you so much babe!!!

On another note, i am very happy to be decorating and preparing for Christmas this year!!! However, i am NOT a fan of black Friday, or working on black Friday.... i surely do not like the big crazy crowds, its not worth it to me.... i cant believe Christmas is almost here already!!! Also im turning 21 in December!!!!! how crazy is that!? :) i love it! Now, what do i get Travis for Christmas....? Does anyone have ANY good ideas on gifts for husbands.... they are so difficult to shop for. Or is that just me?