20 Weeks, Halfway there!!

Tuesday May 13th, we had our 20 week ultrasound and check up. I'm not sure why but i was SO nervous for this check up! I wanted everything to be perfect with our little angel that i was afraid of surprises. But the Lord has blessed us tremendously and we have a healthy perfect little girl growing a week ahead of schedule! However our Dr. does not want to move up the due date, which I am ok with :) While checking everything out and measuring her we caught her yawning and then sucking her thumb! Cutest thing EVER!!! Its amazing how much i love this little girl already. You think you know what love is when you find your life partner, the love of your life, your other half, your spouse. But I honestly think that for a woman, you never truly understand the deep love as that of a mother. To feel that life growing inside of you, to feel them kick and squirm. Its amazing and even though I had to go through SO MUCH to get this gift i am so thankful and wouldn't have it any other way. I know Travis and I were meant to wait those 4 1/2 long years so that he and i could grow stronger together and so that we were truly ready for this little girl to enter into our lives, to make sure that we could give her the best life possible! I cant tell you how excited i am to see Travis in action as a father its going to be amazing!
Travis actually finally got to feel little Alice kick last night! She has been getting strong and she has finally gotten strong enough where he was able to feel her little kick! It was so cool!
 The Dr. mentioned that my placenta is in the front so i wonder if that made it more difficult for him to feel her or not.
Something cute our Dr. told us was one of his theories about the placenta being in front. He said that for babies with the placenta in front the baby is closer to the heart and feels that beat more strongly than if it were in back. So his theory is that children grown with the placenta in front are more musically inclined, that they will carry a beat better and that to comfort that child holding it close to your heart will be the most calming thing for her. Now he says obviously he cant prove any of this, but i liked his theory and so im going along with it haha! How sweet is that? Anyways. Im growing good. My belly gets bigger and bigger everyday and so does my sweet tooth which im starting to worry about! I dont want to gain excessive weight because of all this junk im eating so ive decided to start being better about how i eat and not always giving into those sweet temptations.
I have started to get painful leg cramps when i stretch first thing in the morning, they hurt so bad!!!
Also a little back pain and sometimes i feel a sharp pain shoot down my butt to my leg... its awful, thankfully it doesnt last long.
Other than that.... things are just peachy and i am loving being pregnant!
It really makes me sad to hear of expecting mothers just complain non stop about being pregnant, granted i dont know how they are feeling or how their body handles it but it does make me sad that not everyone is able to enjoy pregnancy.
Its crazy to me to think that i am already 21 weeks.... i never thought i would make it here. Honestly after losing 2 babies already and going through infertility struggles that end goal just seemed to get farther and farther out of reach. So i am so grateful each and everyday that this baby girl grows strong and healthy and i love feeling her kick because i know her heart is still beating strong!
To all my Infertility friends, i know how hard it is to wait and watch everyone else around you getting pregnant, honestly it sucks and its so hard to be happy for them even though you want to be. I hope because i obviously dont know when it will happen for you but i do hope and pray that it does happen for each of you! I do think of you all the time even if i dont always reach out to you, for that im sorry. Women who have to go through infertility in my opinion are some of the strongest women i have met. And through my experience not a whole lot can be said to make infertility easier or to make you feel better so i wont do that. Just know i think of you girls often and pray that in some form you get the opportunity to become moms! I love you all!!


Here are just a few pictures to show progress on the belly growth!