Red Riding Hood

last night me and Travis went to the movies, and i chose Red Riding Hood because id seen the previews for it, and it looked good but had potential to be cheesy... so i wanted to see for myself how it was.
Wow i dont know if you will like it as much as i did but i really loved it!! i thought it was great!!
its kind of got a Twilight feel to it with 2 very attractive boys and one girl and the love triangle kind of thing going on, but i thought it was very suspenseful and fun and entertaining!! loved it! id go see it again!

Waiting!.....

Waiting is a must in life, you cant always get what you want right away, people are trying to make things within reach for right away, like fast food and credit cards and stuff.

I had to wait 18 months for Travis to get home from his mission so i could finally meet him!! the first half wasn't hard, because i was still in high school focusing on graduating and trying to decide what to do after i graduated.( i was pretty sure once Travis got home i would marry him so i didn't stress too hard on finding something to do after graduating) So i just worked till he got home.

Then after only waiting 3 weeks after him getting home, we were engaged, of course it felt like so much longer than only 3 weeks!

Then of course you have to WAIT to get married, which was 4 months of waiting for us! it was hard but at the same time not too hard because we were always together! well as much as we could be.

Then after we were married for 3 months we decided children needed to be a part of our lives, that was put on hold while i got sick and had emergency surgery, and ended up losing my left fallopian tube. This made me worry that waiting for children would be even longer. An OB/GYN specialist said everything should be just fine, should be just like normal, if in 3 months your still not pregnant, come in we will do a bunch of tests.

3 months of WAITING went by and exactly on month 3 i was pregnant!! yay! then the waiting for the first Dr.s visit was on my brain. Until i started bleeding and didn't have to wait anymore and was off to the Dr's to see what was wrong. I miscarried in the Dr.s office before going into the room for the ultra sound.

Now after over a year I'm still waiting for that beautiful child to decide to come down and be a part of our loving family. I'm finally on fertility pills so I'm hopeful that our waiting to become pregnant is soon coming to an end. I took the pregnancy test this morning and not to my surprise it was a big fat, not pregnant.

Which I'm not surprised, it would have been a miracle to become pregnant on the first cycle of Chlomid. But yet again here comes another month of WAITING. Its super hard for me since this would be my first, i don't have any children so its just scary for me because what if i can never have my own child?

Not to mention on top of all this, we have to WAIT to move to ST. George until after this semester of school for Travis. Its hard waiting, especially when the place I'm living at doesn't feel like home to me. St. George just feels so right and in my mind i don't want to wait to be where i know we are meant to be. But this is life and this is my trial and my growth, to become better and be patient. To WAIT for the time when its right. My eyes are slowly being opened but of course i still struggle, who wouldn't?

At times i wish i could fast forward my life to the happiest moment in the future, where Travis has his dream job of being a history teacher at a high school and coaching football, and we have our very own house, and a few kids running around, but the memories and experiences leading up to that moment are what make it so happy, and that's why things are the way they are.

sorry this is a little deep I'm just a little emotional today and wanted to let go of a few of my feelings :)

It doesn't help that the sun has decided to hide from me :) come on i need some sunshine!! :)

Missing the warmth!!

This last Thursday me and Travis headed down to good 'ol St. George to visit some friends and enjoy the warmth!! We also were looking around for our future home... but its still 2 months away so we couldn't actually really look... we gotta wait till its a little closer!! but i am so excited to finally go down and live there!! it kinda made me a little depressed to wake up this morning back in Springville, back to living in the basement apartment of my husbands mom and back to the bipolar weather of Orem-Provo area.... stupid overcast!.... i wanna be back to being surrounded by red rock and red sand and bright hot sun beams!!! soon enough... soon enough. all in all though it was an amazing weekend! it was very sad to leave!
Also something coming up this week, which i am very nervous about... is.... i get to take a pregnancy test..... :S im nervous and don't really know what to do with myself... haha of course ill let you know what the results are. whether good or bad news. Other than that i don't really have any fun or exciting things headed my way for a while i think.... we may have to change that :) until my next post!!!!

MOVING!!!!!!

Its true! we are planning on moving AGAIN!!! Travis has a really good friend that lives down in St. George and was saying we should move down there!! his wife works at the Paul Mitchell school and could get me a job easily working at the front desk making 10-12/hour.... which i would even do pregnant!!! :) Travis has found a job he would love to have so we are going down this weekend to talk with them and give them his resume. We wouldn't be able to move until after this semester of school so the soonest we'd get to leave would be the end of April beginning of May!! We have also found a cute little condo for sale for 59,000, this condo has 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 2 car garage, and a nice big kitchen!!! it also has a pool!!! BINGO! we love it! so we will also go look at that this weekend!!

Travis will transfer to Dixie state and tryout for their football team!!! if he is wanting to be a football coach he might wanna play some collage ball to help him out! the plan is... go to Dixie play football after he graduates try and get a teaching job there at one of the high schools and try and help coach football there... then after maybe a few years working in St. George we will send Travis resume out and find a job somewhere out of state!!! Trav would eventually like to work/live in either, Texas, Virginia, or Chicago..... so i am super super excited to move and kick start this new journey of our lives and move forward. Being here in Orem, Springville area doesn't really seem like we are progressing or moving anywhere but moving down to St. George would feel much more like we were moving along in Travis' career!!!!

Oh i cannot wait to move!! i am so excited that i cant even explain how excited i am!! to have our own place again, to be somewhere WARM all the time!! to watch Travis play football, to have a pool in the backyard, to have a job i would really enjoy!!

If by some crazy reason we cant move down there, regardless we are moving out and to somewhere new, our own place for Travis and Oriana's life to progress!!

YAYYYYYYY!!!

Chlomid update

So i have taken my first round of Chlomid and am super excited for this month! I don't think they had much of an effect on my emotions but i cant be sure, i mean i was super emotional for the time i took them but i also attended a funeral for someone i loved dearly! so I cant really say if they had an effect on me :) But all in all everything is great! It just seams to be taking forever til i can take that pregnancy test! but i am patient and keeping myself busy! Yay!! haha

On other news, I scheduled an appointment for Rue to get fixed on Tuesday, which was the soonest they had. So my poor little Rue is going on Tuesday to be cut open... :( they better not ruin my beautiful fun spirited cat or ill kill them!!! I'm nervous for her but at the same time it will make her life so much more pleasant! Like dramatically more pleasant, my poor cat goes into heat like every other week!!! its so miserable.

Koda is growing slowly but surely and is more of a spirited demon than before but we sure do love that little pug! :)

Nothing else has really any updating to be done... so this will be a short post!...... I'm sure the next post will be much more exciting... maybe, hopefully! ha