Wednesday, April 3, 2013

"Unfortunately it didn't make it."

I've decided I want to write this down so i can move on and forget about Tuesday, March 26 if just for a while.

Tuesday, March 26
My alarm goes off at 9:30 i jump out of bed and head into the bathroom to put my contacts in and get ready for our 10 week ultrasound that was at 10:15. Travis was still laying in bed playing Hay Day on his Ipad as i tell him if he doesn't get up soon we will be late.
We head to the Dr's office happy and not worried about anything. 
We arrived at the Dr's office happy that there was no snow on the ground since last time we were there, snow was still everywhere.
Travis and i went inside, said hello to the receptionist Melony, and was taken back for vitals and a urine sample.
We got in to the room i got undressed and up on the "table" ready for my ultrasound. The Dr came in shortly after and we started. Our baby had gotten so big!! You could start to see facial features (at least i thought i could) arms, and legs were starting to grow and it actually was looking more like a baby!! At first i got real excited because it had grown. A week before our ultrasound i wrote in my journal that i was worried there would be something wrong with baby T&O, something like no heartbeat or something but told myself i was being paranoid, i had all the pregnancy signs and symptoms that i was reading about.
Partially through the ultrasound the Dr clicked on the machine to see blood flow, it didn't show much, baby had none, but he quickly went to the heartbeat finder and it was flat. He also got out of that quickly. He then started pushing almost like a pulse on my uterus and you could see baby bounding around in the ultrasound. Travis and i not really thinking much of it thought he was trying to move it around to get a better view or wake it up. And then the worst sentence i cold have ever imagined our Dr would say that day happened. "Well, unfortunately it didn't make it." That was all i heard as i stared into the ultrasound monitor. The Dr continued talking but i didn't hear any of what he said, i still don't know what he was saying. All i remember was staring at the screen and thinking no, no, no, no. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as my favorite nurse came and held my hand tight in hers, and handed me a tissue. Instantly without being able to control it i burst into full crying, gasping. The nurse cried with me for a little while and helped to clean up my make up before she left me and Travis alone. When she left i held out my hand for Travis, still laying on the "table" Travis came and scooped me into his arms and just let me cry into his nice white T-shirt. He let me hold him for what felt like ever before i finally caught my breathe and let go. still crying i got up and got dressed and Travis held me again. Then he told me to sit down. He gave me an amazing blessing and hoped for a miracle if it was gods will and after that i was still heartbroken but i knew i would survive. After the blessing he went out and asked the Dr. to take another look. I got undressed again and back into position. But the results didn't change. Our baby was gone. The Dr said it could have been a blood clot in the umbilical chord, or a chromosome issue. He couldn't be positive from just the ultrasound. He suggested a D&C so they could look at it and study to see what went wrong. But he mentioned that that surgery could have a possibility of scaring. I told him no, my issue with being able to get pregnant is all about scar tissue and i wasn't going to risk any more.
He told me it wasn't harmful to me to let it miscarry on its own but the emotional toll would be difficult since it could take anywhere from a week to a whole month for my body to let it go and miscarry. 
Even with the hard emotional part of it we decided to do mother natures way.
He told us if we were up to it and if it were possible that when it passes if we could catch it and save it, then bring it in they could possibly do some studies to see what went wrong.
He also mentioned that he was pretty sure it was a chromosome issue from what he could see and if he was right the chances of this happening with our next pregnancy was less than 15%

This isn't my first loss but it is very different from my first. It isn't any easier but i feel i am stronger emotionally to get through it quicker. 

As we left i told Travis that i didn't want to go home and just sit and think about it i wanted to keep busy. So we drove around to many different places, Sports Clips, Home Depot, Bath and Body works, Sushi. I felt like i was dead, like a zombie walking around trying to smile and make jokes but my eyes were burning and at any blink tears would roll down my cheeks. 

The end of the day came and i wasn't talking to anyone but Travis, I did send my mom a text to let her now because she knew i had an ultrasound that morning, but i couldn't get myself to talk to her for fear of breaking down and losing it all over again.

Many friends and family shared their love and support and sorrow for us and it was comforting but all i wanted at the end of the day was to snuggle up with the love of my life and just watch a war movie. We ended up watching Machete which was perfect because it was dumb and gory which was perfect. No real emotional attachment for me in it. 

Travis and i had a heart to heart before i fell asleep and it was amazing. words and expressions will never show how much i truly love that man. All the hardships that we have had together have only made us stronger!! 

This post probably doesn't make much sense because i feel like my thoughts are running in every direction but i needed this outlet so that i could start healing. Although I'm afraid of when the time comes and i do eventually miscarry. I'm afraid of the pain in brings physically and emotionally but i know it has to happen. 

I'm not sure when we will be able to do In Vitro again, if i have to wait til after the bleeding from the miscarriage stops, or if i have to have another full cycle after. I'm not sure just yet.
 We did freeze our remaining 5 fertilized embryos from our first In Vitro cycle, so this time around it should be more like an IUI with progesterone shots after. At least I'm thinking it will be like that. But i am ready to try again as soon as our Dr. will let me. I am bound and determined to have our child!! I'm done waiting. 

I will not let this break me, i will hold strong in the church, in my faith and my belief of the Atonement.  Some of the most comforting messages i was given was that our sweet angel was too pure, too precious to be born into this dark wicked world that all they needed was a body so that they could return to be with their father in heaven again. Its comforting to know that i have 2 children in Heaven waiting for me and keeping my future children company as they wait for the right time to come down to me.

Thank you everyone for your love and support as always. I don't know where we would be with out all the thoughts and prayers that are spent on our behalf. Thank you! xoxo

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

First Ultra Sound

So i just realized i never posted on my blog about our first ultra sound that we had!! I had posted on Facebook and Instagram so i thought i had covered everything but i didn't, sorry blog!
So Travis and I went in on Feb 28 for our first ultra sound, it was so nerve wracking to sit and wait! We got in and started and there was one little baby in there!!! It was amazing to see that little thing! We also got to see its little heartbeat which was SO AMAZING! They told us that i was 6 weeks 3 days and was due October 20th!! We are the happiest people on the earth right now! :) We go back in on the 26th of this month for our last ultra sound with East Bay Fertility before we have to find an OB/GYN! Its too bad that my fertility Dr. and staff don't do pregnancy and delivery because they are amazing! But im sure i will find just as great of an OB/GYN!! 
Today i am 8 weeks 3 days and doing great so far! I still wake up in the middle of the night to pee and then have THE hardest time getting comfortable and falling asleep again! I recently cant stand the smell, taste or sometimes the look of meat these days! Which is really sad because i love meat. So i guess i am a vegetarian for a while. I am loving any fruits but mostly citrus ones! I get tired real easy and towards night time is when i feel the most nauseous. So far so good i consider myself very lucky because i feel great!
Thats all for right now.

Here is a picture of our little blueberry at 6 weeks 3 days

Monday, February 25, 2013

My IVF experience

I had a request to share my IVF experience and all the things i had to do for it, so i decided that it would be good to write it all down and have on my blog for the future!
 So here we go,
In December we were ready to start In-Vitro, we went into the Dr.s office and did an ultrasound and took some blood. We thought we would be starting that month but as the blood results came back i had an Ovarian Cyst that was producing too much estrogen so i had to be put on Birth Control (BC) for that whole month to try and get ride of that cyst.
 Friday January 11 I started my day One!! Travis and i got instant butterflies and were so excited for what was ahead. We got to go in and see my Dr that day! He told us that the cyst was gone and we could go ahead and start the process! AAHHH YAY!! We decided with the Dr's help that with my age being still very young and my body being healthy, besides the aweful scar tissue which was messing everything up, from blocking my ovaries from letting any eggs out to be fertilized, that we would go with the low stim IVF ($7,800-$10,000 ours ended up costing about 9,200 because we had to buy more out of state meds twice, because my body wasn't responding to the normal single dose), also it was much cheaper that Traditional IVF(any where from $17,000-$25,000)!

Day 1: Dr's visit, ultra sound and blood draw
Day 2: relax
Day 3: start oral medications; 2 Chlomid in the morning, 4 Femera at night
Day 4: 2 Chlomid in the morning, 4 Famera at night
Day 5: 2 Chlomid in the morning, 4 Famera at night
Day 6: 2 Chlomid in the morning, 4 Famera at night
Day 7: 2 Chomid in the morning, 4 Famera at night (last day for Famera)
Day 8: 2 Chlomin in the morning
Day 9: 2 Chlomid in the morning (last day) Start Doxycyclin 2 a day (oral antibiotic for egg retrieval op) Dr.s visit were he said my follicles weren't growing as well as he would like to see. He showed us how to give injections and told me to start taking 4 vials of Menagon/REpronex a day and to come back in tomorrow, if they haven't responded to the hormones by tomorrow we have to stop there and wait til next month to do Traditional IVF
Day 10: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex,  Drs appointment at 9 am the follicles responded and grew from 5's to 9's!! told to continue 4 vials of Menagon/Repronex until they said stop.
Day 11: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex
Day 12: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex, Start Antagon in abdomen.
Day 13: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex, 1 Antagon, Drs appt. 10 am still checking on follicle growth not wanting to miss their window.
Day 14: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex, 1 Antagon, another Dr.s visit 11am
Day 15: Doxycyclin 2 a day, 4 vials Menagon/Repronex, 1 Antagon, Drs visit at 9 am!! Egg retrieval Schedualed for day 17 Sunday Jan 27! Take HCG trigger shot and Ovadryl injection at 9:30 pm on the dot!(this was to keep me from ovulating so they could retrieve the eggs before they were released.)
Day 16: Doxycyclin 2 a day, no food or drink after 10 pm
Day 17: Egg Retrieval 9 am!! they did an ultra sound make sure that my body hadn't ovulated yet! Then i was taken back to the OR room where i was put under anesthesia while they did they Egg Retrieval. How they do this is the use a special vaginal ultra sound wand that had a needle at the end of it, they use this to poke through the uterine wall and through the ovaries to collect the eggs. Thank goodness i was asleep! While i was in the OR room they had Travis give them a sperm sample. After the procedure I had some light bleeding after and some very light cramps, not bad at all. I started 1/2 CC of progesterone
Day 18: 1/2 cc Progesterone Dr's office called all 7 eggs were fertilized and 5 looked almost identical which was really good! Egg Transfer date scheduled Day 20 Wednesday Jan 30!
Day 19: 1/2 cc Progesterone
Day 20: 1/2 cc Progesterone, Egg Transfer at 10 am, i was told to take a Valium half hour before appointment and to have my bladder half full to make the transfer go more smoothly. Before we had the transfer the Embryologist showed us our fertilized embryos!! It was amazing he even told us to take pictures of them through the microscope!! I was super excited about that! It was hard to pick the very best 2 from almost perfect 5 but we were able to find little differences in each which helped us to decide which 2. We put 2, 8 cell grade AB embryos into my body. I was so relaxed and woozy from the Valium that it was awesome. The Transfer was painless and so cool to see those little embryos from the ultra sound being put into my uterus!! I stayed lying down on the table for 20 min after that and then was told i could get up and go. Scheduled pregnancy blood draw 12 days from today. Monday Feb 11 at 9 am.
Day 21: 1/2 cc Progesterone, Start of 3 day bed rest, Dr's orders do not get up unless to pee, no sugar or greasy oily foods. Only happy movies, no drama, no intense or scary movies. :(
Day 22: 1/2 cc Progesterone, Bed rest day #2
Day 23: 1/2 cc Progesterone, Last day bed rest yay!!
Day 24: 1/2 cc Progesterone, able to get up and do normal activities but still keep good diet and no exercising just yet
Day 25: 1/2 cc progesterone
Day 26: 1/2 cc progesterone
Day 27: 1/2 cc progesterone, This stuff is SO THICK that the needle for it is huge, it also puddles in your body if you don't rub it in good enough and you get huge painful knots, even if i rubbed them in good i still got huge painful knots!!
Day 28: 1/2 cc Progesterone
Day 29: 1/2 cc Progesterone
Day 30: 1/2 cc Progesterone
Day 31: 1/2 cc Progesterone
Day 32: 1/2 cc Progesterone, 9am Pregnancy blood draw and progesterone level check!! This was the quickest Dr's visit we had ever had, in and out within 5 min. We ended up waiting 2 hours for their call and we couldn't wait any more so we drove back down the the Dr.s office where the Dr. got to tell us himself that anything over a 5 is pregnant and we were at 169!! So we were for sure pregnant! He also told us that with levels being this high its possible that there could be twins in there, or just one really strong one, it could go either way! So we set up our first ultrasound for 2 1/2 weeks from then, being Thursday Feb 28th at 9 am! We were also told to start taking only 1/4 cc Progesterone injection for 4 more days then we would check the levels again.
Day 33: 1/4 cc Progesterone
Day 34: 1/4 cc Progesterone
Day 35:  1/4 cc Progesterone
Day 36: 14 cc Progesterone
Day 39: Went in got blood done, turns out my levels were great and i got to stop taking the Progesterone shots!!!! YYYYAAAYYY!!!
This whole month i was pretty much trapped in the house because i wasn't allowed to stress and with being on these hormones everything stressed me out, i mean EVERYTHING it was insane. Glad to report that has gone away quite a bit and i feel pretty normal with stress :)

Today i am at day 46 and have my ultra sound on this coming Thursday!! To say that i am so very excited is an understatement!!!
Some side effects that I've noticed would be, that i do pee a bit more often than usual, I'm a lot more thirsty, my chest is tender and growing!!! Bras are so uncomfortable!! I am a stomach sleeper and ever since the week i did the Egg Transfer i haven't been able to sleep on my stomach without waking up feeling sick! My abdomen area is very sensitive i cant wear jeans unless the waist is a little loose, leggings are my best friend lately! I get really tired every night at 10 pm, if i am in bed and i turn on my side and close my eyes, i am out within minutes, and i never used to fall asleep so fast before, EVER!
We don't know our estimated Due Date (EDD) just yet or how many weeks i am but from what i have read i think I'm about 7 weeks and due mid October.... but i guess our ultrasound will clear those questions up when it comes! :)  and that's pretty much my IVF low stimulus experience!! It got hard emotionally and physically some days but it was worth it 100 times over. I had a very big fear of needles and now i don't fear them nearly as much as i did before. This experience has made Travis and I grow even more as a couple, and i know that with the past 3 years of infertility we have SUCH a strong relationship that nothing could tear us apart we really have become the best of friends i could have ever hoped for.
I am so excited to finally be pregnant with our child, I'm already further along that i was with my first pregnancy so every day is a gift for us!!!!
Thank you all for reading hope this was interesting and informative! If you have any questions on IVF i love talking about it and would be glad to answer any questions!!

Monday, February 11, 2013

Pregnancy Blood Test!

This morning at 9 am we had a pregnancy blood test! I have been so nervous that i didn't sleep well at ALL last night! I was up all night tossing and turning!
We got in at 9 drew the blood and were done within 5 min. our quickest Drs. visit yet!
Travis and I sat around at home after for about 2 hours waiting for them to call us with our results. We couldn't wait anymore, we decided to stop back by the office and hear the news in person!
We got there and Dr. Andrews came out of his office saying how he was just about to call us. So we walked into the office real nervous and he didn't leave us guessing for long.
Dr. Andrews told us we were pregnant!!!!!!!!! HOLY COW!! I started to cry and shake i was so excited. He told us that anything over a 5 is pregnant and our levels were 169. So we were very happy with that! He told us everything was looking great and that i get to half my dose of progesterone and take it for the next 4 days and then i am done! Yay my hips are so sore!!
The Dr. told us that in our ultra sound on the 28 of this month we would be able to tell if there is only one baby or if there are more babies in there!! I really am hoping for twins so the praying and finger crossing isn't over yet!
Its so crazy to think that 1 miscarriage, 2 IUI's, 3 years and many Drs., tests, heartache, tears and money later, IVF has done the trick for us!! It feels too good to be true I'm still having a hard time believing it.
I kind of cheated, i took a pregnancy test on the 2nd and there was a very very VERY faint line but a line none the less, i hadn't see one of these in 3 years so i bought more tests and took them all the way up to yesterday and each day the line grew darker, it was so amazing to see that little pink line grow and have such an effect on me and Travis, but of course we didn't want to get our hopes up until for sure it was confirmed by the blood!! :D
Today has been such a great day and i hope for many more great days to follow!! Its so crazy to me to think that after everything we have gone through these last 3 years it might all finally be over... Travis and I are SO ready for a baby(ies) the way we see it we had to wait 3 years, 2 at once would be a bonus!!
We are so ecstatic right now! i just wanted to share our happy news with all you great family friends supportive followers and anyone that reads my little blog. IVF is a real life miracle!!!
If ANYONE is having problems getting pregnant i highly suggest you go to Dr. Larry Andrews at East Bay Fertility in Provo Utah he is a miracle man and his whole staff is amazing so sweet and caring and easy to talk to! Im so grateful for prayers and inspiration because without either we never would have found our Dr.
Thanks for reading everyone ill keep you updated on life and for sure once we have our first ultra sound on the 28th!! :)

Friday, February 1, 2013

Egg Transfer

So i figured it was about time that i posted about my Egg Transfer!!
We went in at 10am on Wednesday and got to look at our fertilized eggs, which was sooo cool!! We picked the very best 2 eggs which the Embryologist said was hard to pick because there were 3 eggs that looked almost identical! They were 8 cell grade AB embryos.
Then we transferred them back in!! It was so cool to see through the ultra sound and see the eggs being pushed through the tube and into the uterus!!
After that we went home i was still pretty loop from the Valium so i went straight to bed for like half hour til it wore off haha then it was Chick Flicks and Comedies for the next 3 days.
I was Told to be on bed rest for 3 days and not get up for anything but to go to the bathroom!! And this part has been pretty hard, no sugar especially chocolate, no fried or greasy foods which makes sense because its healthy :) Travis had been such a big help in taking care of me and so has his mom! My mother-in-law has been such a big help she has been bringing us lunch and dinner for those 3 days of bed rest so that Travis didn't have to worry about it and that we got fed some good food :) Its been great!
I do have to admit that i am excited to be able to get up tomorrow and do things for myself even though this has been nice and for a good cause.
10 more days till we get to find out if we are pregnant or not!! We cannot wait, time is going by so slowly!!
So far no side effects just little bits of random cramping but nothing big just very minor, other than that nothing. I really hope that it works this time for us! Well thats it for now!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Our Egg Retrieval and Transfer date

So yesterday was my Egg Retrieval and i didn't sleep well at all that night!! I had nightmares that they just put me on gas like at the dentist and i was freaking out saying "IM AWAKE IM AWAKE DON'T DO IT YET!!!" ya so i didn't sleep well at all.
We got into the office at 8:40 and did a quick ultra sound to make sure that the eggs were still there and they were. So we went back into their OR room, the Anesthesiologist, the nurse, the Embryologist, and my Dr all made me feel so comfortable even though i was nervous it was amazing!
They told me that i should wake up quickly after they were done, well come to find out i didn't wake up until 45 min after they were already done!!! Travis said that all of them, the Anesthesiologist, the Embryologist, my Dr, and the Nurse all came in throughout that 45 min and just laughed because i was still asleep, saying she must not have slept well last night!!
I woke up and had no pain but light spotting. I was SUPER dizzy though and needed help to walk out haha.
They gave me my first progesterone shot and surprisingly with the bigger needle it didn't hurt any worse but let me tell ya a few hours after i was SO SORE!!! my whole left side felt like i had worked out super hard the day before and was sore! So they told me to massage it when its sore and that walking helped it to not ache so much!
They were able to get 7 eggs! 7!!!! which was so exciting because it was a possibility just 2 days before that there might only be 2 so 7 was great news!!!

So the Embryologist just called me today and told me that he fertilized 5 of the matured eggs and that all of them took really well and were fertilized! We go in for our Egg Transfer on Wednesday at 10 am and he said something about us getting to choose which eggs we wanted back in, guess we will see what that's all about Wednesday ! Have i mentioned that i am so excited for this!! We could be pregnant this week!!!! AHHHH :D

I'm a little bummed that our appointment isn't tomorrow, Tuesday just because i am so excited, but Wednesday will come soon enough! And that is about all for now!! i will for sure write more on Wednesday after we get the Egg Transfer :D wish us luck!!!

Friday, January 25, 2013

Egg Retrieval!!

Dr's appt went well this morning things are looking good! He said there is about 5 eggs that he can see that look good and ready maybe even more so that was very exciting for us to hear!
We have scheduled our Egg Retrieval for this Sunday at 9:00 am!! ahhh how exciting is that!? i have to be honest i'm kinda freaking out that its all finally here and that things are actually starting to work out for us!
Wow we cant wait.
So tonight i was instructed to take my ovadryl and HCG shots tonight at 9:30 pm!
Then tomorrow after 10 pm i am not allowed to eat or drink anything in preparation for going under anesthesia, which im psyching my self out about, i'm nervous for that part! Also i think i get a day of rest from injections which will be a nice break since after that ill have to start daily progesterone injections!!
But ya that is our super exciting news for the day :D more will soon to follow im sure! Thanks for reading!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

One day more!

Haha my title makes me think of the song from Les Miserables :D

Alright so had My Dr's appt today and things aren't where he wants them to be just yet so we did a blood test to see if my hormones are high enough to start getting ready for Egg Retrieval Saturday, but there is a chance that there would only be 2 eggs big enough and ready to fertilize so he is hoping my levels are still low enough we can do one more day of repronex increasing our 2 egg possibility to 6 egg possibility :)
So Travis and I went home eager to hear the results of our blood test so we can see whats next, and we are doing ONE more day of the repronex and then I'm guessing Sunday we will be doing our Egg Retrieval. We have another Dr's appt tomorrow morning and i think that is when he will let us know a for sure on the date for Egg Retrieval :) 
Its all so exciting and at the same time, very tiring, I'm exhausted. We have gone to the Dr's office Sunday, Wednesday, Thursday, and now Friday of this week.... maybe we should move in? :) hahah jk i don't mind it one bit!
But hey i did pretty good 3 posts in 3 days is pretty good!! I'm pleased with myself! 
Well maybe i can keep this going and update you tomorrow after my appointment to keep you up to date. 
Bye now!

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Day 13

What?! 2 posts in 2 days!!! Not sure how often this will happen but its a good start :D
 Alright so update on my life aka IVF. We had a Dr.s appointment today and the follicles are looking great!! we had a 20,  and some 15,14,13's and one 9. The nurse said about the 20 "dang that kids going to be able to hold its own" ha ha because its stealing all the hormones :D it made me smile to think that, that follicle could be my child. The Dr said things are looking good i have one more day of the 4 doses Repronex and 3 more days of the Antagon.
We have another appointment tomorrow at 11 to check up on the follicles again and this time get some blood work, TTHHEENNNN hopefully two days after that we will have our egg retrieval!! So Saturday i could possibly be getting my eggs taken out and fertilized!!! ahhh so exciting, that's if everything checks out and looks the way he wants it to tomorrow!! fingers crossed and lots more praying ha ha!
Oh man this road to pregnancy sure hasn't been easy by ANY means but i know that once we finally get our little angel or angels (fingers crossed id like two) it will have been well worth it!

Alright well that's all the update i have for now, i will hopefully post again tomorrow with what happens at my appointment!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Moving and In Vitro (IVF)

 Wow i really am sorry about how horrible i am at keeping my blog up to date!

To start off, we moved again! ahah i know AGAIN!!! This is the 5th time in almost 4 years that we have moved, but glad to say this WILL be the last move for a LONG LONG TIME!! Because i am all tired out of moving!
We moved at the beginning of January! Travis sister and family were wanting to go back to Orem and Travis dad didn't want the house to sell to someone outside the family since they work out of the barn there. So we were offered to "Trade" houses. Of course we said yes!! This house is beautiful! It is paid off just like our other house we bought and the title was switched over into our name, so this baby really is Travis and mine. Its seriously a fairytale!!
We are basically all moved in everything we own is here just little things here and there that need to be put away but since starting in vitro and all these hormone shots ive been taking ive become strangely lazy and tired all the time! But ill get into that more in a little!
Our new house is still on a farm there is no way i could have talked Travis out of his farm so soon, we have only lived out in Payson for a year plus i don't mind it, im glad to stay!! i love my Pygmy goats :)
I do miss the area of our last home just because it was more open more fields for hay and corn and stuff like that where this area is all 5 acre lots its got alot more homes so it feels more like being in the city again, but not really. If that makes any sense :) i will post pictures i have taken of clean rooms ha

Ok now onto the topic i love to talk about!

In Vitro or IVF

Travis and I started our first cycle of IVF on January 10th!! Making that our Day 1 we were freaking out with excitement. The time had finally come!
So on Day 1 we went in and had an ultra sound to make sure that my ovarian cysts from last month had gone away with the birth control, and they had!!! So that was great news we were super excited.
The Dr. told us to go home and on day 3 start taking my Chlomid 2 in the morning till Day 9 and Famera 4 at night until Day 7.
Day 9 we went in to have another ultra sound to make sure that my follicles were growing good and that there were multiples of them. Well it wasn't what we were hoping there were only 2 follicles measuring at 11 and 14 and about 6-8 that were size 5's. The Dr. didn't like that so he told me because my body was rejecting the hormones for some odd reason i had to take 4 doses of the Repronex a day instead of 1. I was to come back in the next day, Day 10 and if they didn't show any growth we would have to STOP In Vitro right then and go with traditional IVF which is much more expensive. My heart stopped there was no way we would afford to do traditional IVF at this time which meant we wold have to wait even longer to get pregnant.
So we went home and prayed and prayed like crazy that they would grow!
Our Dr.s app was at 9 am and guess what, those 5's had turned into 9's!!!!! yay they responded!!!
So the Dr. told us to take 4 doses of Repronex a day for 4 days and then to start Antagon on Day 12. but before i left he told me some things that might help the hormones work better. He realigned my whole body, it felt awesome i didn't know i could crack and pop SO much!! And also to change my diet! No soda, fried or greasy foods and try to stay away from sugar!!! Soda is my weakness but i have done surprisingly good i would say!
We have a Drs appt. tomorrow to make sure things are looking good! I'm hoping with that appointment we will be able to schedule our egg retrieval!!!!!!!! HOPING!!!!! and then soon after that is the Egg Transfer!!! its all getting so close and we are soo soo excited!! but that is all for now with these hormone injections i am a bit emotional and poor Travis has to deal with me, but he has been so great! :) i feel like my eyes are always burning like they are on the verge of tears, and i choke up at the stupidest smallest things! its kinda funny but other times i just get frustrated with myself.
k well that's all and now for the best part, PICTURES!! :D

 living room off the kitchen
 a decorative wall in the kitchen area
dining nook
downstairs theater
 down stairs theater
 front entry way
 master bath
 my craft room :D
 dining nook

 play ground outside, freakin sweet
front of the house
 just some of the injection meds
 this is the repronex
 4 doses repronex
 Antagon goes in the belly and hurt way more than the repronex that goes in my hip/butt
 puncture wound
he likes playing dr and poking me with needles