One day more!

Haha my title makes me think of the song from Les Miserables :D

Alright so had My Dr's appt today and things aren't where he wants them to be just yet so we did a blood test to see if my hormones are high enough to start getting ready for Egg Retrieval Saturday, but there is a chance that there would only be 2 eggs big enough and ready to fertilize so he is hoping my levels are still low enough we can do one more day of repronex increasing our 2 egg possibility to 6 egg possibility :)

So Travis and I went home eager to hear the results of our blood test so we can see whats next, and we are doing ONE more day of the repronex and then I'm guessing Sunday we will be doing our Egg Retrieval. We have another Dr's appt tomorrow morning and i think that is when he will let us know a for sure on the date for Egg Retrieval :) 

Its all so exciting and at the same time, very tiring, I'm exhausted. We have gone to the Dr's office Sunday, Wednesday, Thursday, and now Friday of this week.... maybe we should move in? :) hahah jk i don't mind it one bit!

But hey i did pretty good 3 posts in 3 days is pretty good!! I'm pleased with myself! 

Well maybe i can keep this going and update you tomorrow after my appointment to keep you up to date. 

Bye now!

Day 13

What?! 2 posts in 2 days!!! Not sure how often this will happen but its a good start :D
 Alright so update on my life aka IVF. We had a Dr.s appointment today and the follicles are looking great!! we had a 20,  and some 15,14,13's and one 9. The nurse said about the 20 "dang that kids going to be able to hold its own" ha ha because its stealing all the hormones :D it made me smile to think that, that follicle could be my child. The Dr said things are looking good i have one more day of the 4 doses Repronex and 3 more days of the Antagon.
We have another appointment tomorrow at 11 to check up on the follicles again and this time get some blood work, TTHHEENNNN hopefully two days after that we will have our egg retrieval!! So Saturday i could possibly be getting my eggs taken out and fertilized!!! ahhh so exciting, that's if everything checks out and looks the way he wants it to tomorrow!! fingers crossed and lots more praying ha ha!
Oh man this road to pregnancy sure hasn't been easy by ANY means but i know that once we finally get our little angel or angels (fingers crossed id like two) it will have been well worth it!

Alright well that's all the update i have for now, i will hopefully post again tomorrow with what happens at my appointment!

Moving and In Vitro (IVF)

 Wow i really am sorry about how horrible i am at keeping my blog up to date!

To start off, we moved again! ahah i know AGAIN!!! This is the 5th time in almost 4 years that we have moved, but glad to say this WILL be the last move for a LONG LONG TIME!! Because i am all tired out of moving!
We moved at the beginning of January! Travis sister and family were wanting to go back to Orem and Travis dad didn't want the house to sell to someone outside the family since they work out of the barn there. So we were offered to "Trade" houses. Of course we said yes!! This house is beautiful! It is paid off just like our other house we bought and the title was switched over into our name, so this baby really is Travis and mine. Its seriously a fairytale!!
We are basically all moved in everything we own is here just little things here and there that need to be put away but since starting in vitro and all these hormone shots ive been taking ive become strangely lazy and tired all the time! But ill get into that more in a little!
Our new house is still on a farm there is no way i could have talked Travis out of his farm so soon, we have only lived out in Payson for a year plus i don't mind it, im glad to stay!! i love my Pygmy goats :)
I do miss the area of our last home just because it was more open more fields for hay and corn and stuff like that where this area is all 5 acre lots its got alot more homes so it feels more like being in the city again, but not really. If that makes any sense :) i will post pictures i have taken of clean rooms ha

Ok now onto the topic i love to talk about!

In Vitro or IVF

Travis and I started our first cycle of IVF on January 10th!! Making that our Day 1 we were freaking out with excitement. The time had finally come!
So on Day 1 we went in and had an ultra sound to make sure that my ovarian cysts from last month had gone away with the birth control, and they had!!! So that was great news we were super excited.
The Dr. told us to go home and on day 3 start taking my Chlomid 2 in the morning till Day 9 and Famera 4 at night until Day 7.
Day 9 we went in to have another ultra sound to make sure that my follicles were growing good and that there were multiples of them. Well it wasn't what we were hoping there were only 2 follicles measuring at 11 and 14 and about 6-8 that were size 5's. The Dr. didn't like that so he told me because my body was rejecting the hormones for some odd reason i had to take 4 doses of the Repronex a day instead of 1. I was to come back in the next day, Day 10 and if they didn't show any growth we would have to STOP In Vitro right then and go with traditional IVF which is much more expensive. My heart stopped there was no way we would afford to do traditional IVF at this time which meant we wold have to wait even longer to get pregnant.
So we went home and prayed and prayed like crazy that they would grow!
Our Dr.s app was at 9 am and guess what, those 5's had turned into 9's!!!!! yay they responded!!!
So the Dr. told us to take 4 doses of Repronex a day for 4 days and then to start Antagon on Day 12. but before i left he told me some things that might help the hormones work better. He realigned my whole body, it felt awesome i didn't know i could crack and pop SO much!! And also to change my diet! No soda, fried or greasy foods and try to stay away from sugar!!! Soda is my weakness but i have done surprisingly good i would say!
We have a Drs appt. tomorrow to make sure things are looking good! I'm hoping with that appointment we will be able to schedule our egg retrieval!!!!!!!! HOPING!!!!! and then soon after that is the Egg Transfer!!! its all getting so close and we are soo soo excited!! but that is all for now with these hormone injections i am a bit emotional and poor Travis has to deal with me, but he has been so great! :) i feel like my eyes are always burning like they are on the verge of tears, and i choke up at the stupidest smallest things! its kinda funny but other times i just get frustrated with myself.
k well that's all and now for the best part, PICTURES!! :D

 living room off the kitchen

 a decorative wall in the kitchen area

dining nook

downstairs theater

 down stairs theater

 front entry way

 master bath

 my craft room :D

 dining nook

 kitchen

 play ground outside, freakin sweet

 barn

front of the house

 syringe 

 just some of the injection meds

 this is the repronex

 4 doses repronex

 Antagon goes in the belly and hurt way more than the repronex that goes in my hip/butt

 puncture wound

he likes playing dr and poking me with needles

IVF

Well as some might know, Travis and I are doing In Vitro! We are so excited for this and can't wait to get started.
We were supposed to start the beginning of this month and came home from our Drs. appointment super excited!! And then the Drs. office called saying I had an ovarian cyst that was producing too much estrogen so we couldn't start this month!! We were so bummed but grateful that we would get to enjoy a relaxing Christmas and New Years!
They put me on birth control to get rid of my cysts so we can start IVF January 13 which is a little crazy considering I miscarried 3 years ago on January 13!!! We are so so excited! I am real nervous for the first week of injections though not looking forward to those but hey, I'm gunna do whatever it takes! So that's the most recent news for us I will post about my birthday and Christmas another day!!! :)

Slacking much?

Alright i know i said that i would post back after i found out the results from my 1st IUI but it seems that i mostly update my instagram and sometimes facebook more than anything! So for that i am sorry!

Well lets just get right down to business then, my first IUI didn't take so we did the exact same thing, double doses of Chlomid for days 3-9 of my cycle take an ovulation prediction kit, come in after we got the double dark lines. IUI #2 was initiated. This time around i was really excited because i didn't have any of the negative signs this go around that i had last time. I was sure we were pregnant! But of course as life would have it #2 didnt take either.

So being a little disappointed and a little exhausted i called my Dr office to see if we could get more Chlomid to start round #3. To my surprise my Dr. said that he only wanted to try ONE more IUI before talking about  In Vitro. But before we did anything else he wanted me to come in to get a test done that i had back in 2010 a Hysterosalpingogram which is where they shoot fluid up the uterus into the fallopian tube to see if it is clogged or open. Because i only have one Fallopian tube it was kind of a big deal. 

Well after much fluid and much pushing and poking we saw fluid flowing through the tube meaning if it was clogged it was now open and letting things pass through it, but as he started to look more he noticed my ovaries weren't popping out at him like they should when he pushed on my abdomen. So after some more pushing and poking he told me that my ovaries are being blocked by scar tissue and being help up against my insides, meaning that no eggs can leave my ovaries to be fertilized, so it didn't matter if my tube was open or not. 

After this news i was a little down and frustrated and asked what my options were. Option #1 get surgery to try and remove scar tissue and then wait a few months to recover before trying to conceive again, or option #2 start In Vitro since the only problem we have discovered is that we cant get any eggs to get to where they need to be to get fertilized.

Well this January 13th marks the 3 years since i miscarried our first pregnancy I'm don't waiting and i just want the fastest route we can get on! So Travis and I decided to start In Vitro!

But wait there is more, you didn't think it would be that easy did  you?

The embryologist will be out of town for 2 weeks in January for a conference so in order to start the In Vitro process THIS month i would have to start my cycle no later than Dec. 14th! Well on my calendar on my phone I'm predicted to start on the 14th so lets hope that my body decided to work with us, because if I'm any later than the 14th we have to wait a whole month to start In Vitro on the next cycle.

Can i also tell you i am terrified of doing In Vitro, we got a packet of everything we have to do for that whole month and all the medications and INJECTIONS(yes i have to give myself shots through out the whole month!!) i have to take, and that i have to be put on bed rest for 3 days after the insemination of the fertilized eggs! I am only allowed to eat drink go to the bathroom and lay in bed watching movies, But only comedy, happy movies! No drama no suspense no horror! I mean this is a big deal!!

I'm a little worried but i know that it will be easier than i think, plus my Dr and his staff is amazing!! If anyone reading this needs a fertility Dr to go to i am suggesting you go to Dr. Larry Andrews at East Bay Fertility in Provo UT. They are amazing!

So this is my update as of late and now all we can do is wait til the 14th of December to see what we do next!! 

Travis and i are super super excited and hope this is the answer to our prayers.

If all goes well and we get pregnant off of this, then after i give birth to our first child sometime after that i will go in for the surgery to remove the scar tissue so that we might be able to conceive on our own and not have to use In Vitro every time. But who knows what will happen in the future so i guess we will just wait and see!!