Well after waiting and waiting forever to find out the results of this blood test i had taken Monday, we finally called them to see if they had gotten the results yet. They ended up calling us back to tell us that the blood test said NEGATIVE. :S according to my blood and HCG levels i am not pregnant. Honestly how much teasing am i gonna have to go through. This is not fun at all. My heart can only handle so much tugging. It is now 4 months since i miscarried, and i remember it as if it happened yesterday, cant i just get lucky and have a regular pregnancy? I think all the time when passing by baby clothes at the store or seeing pregnant women or babies, i wonder if i hadn't miscarried id know what i was having by now, a boy or a girl. instead I'm having a hard time even getting pregnant. I feel like Amy Adams in The Time Travelers Wife, " Whats wrong with me wanting one normal thing in my life?" i guess this post is to just kinda let out my feelings and frustration so that i don't dwell on in too long. I've just gotta keep going and smiling and be happy cuz there is nothing in my power i can do. Thank you all for your love, interest, and support i appreciate it so much!! I love you all!