Thursday, May 20, 2010

blood test..

Well after waiting and waiting forever to find out the results of this blood test i had taken Monday, we finally called them to see if they had gotten the results yet. They ended up calling us back to tell us that the blood test said NEGATIVE. :S according to my blood and HCG levels i am not pregnant. Honestly how much teasing am i gonna have to go through. This is not fun at all. My heart can only handle so much tugging. It is now 4 months since i miscarried, and i remember it as if it happened yesterday, cant i just get lucky and have a regular pregnancy? I think all the time when passing by baby clothes at the store or seeing pregnant women or babies, i wonder if i hadn't miscarried id know what i was having by now, a boy or a girl. instead I'm having a hard time even getting pregnant. I feel like Amy Adams in The Time Travelers Wife, " Whats wrong with me wanting one normal thing in my life?" i guess this post is to just kinda let out my feelings and frustration so that i don't dwell on in too long. I've just gotta keep going and smiling and be happy cuz there is nothing in my power i can do. Thank you all for your love, interest, and support i appreciate it so much!! I love you all!


  1. I'm sorry girl. :( It'll happen i know when its right! I know, i'm sure thats what everyone keeps saying...but i feel the same way except with finding a just never works out...i get my hopes up and it fails. :( Your still young two will make it through this! I know you will! Keep you head up and keep going! It will happen, i know it will! LOVE YOU!

  2. I know how it feels. Jared and I have been trying for over a year and a half now with no luck. Sometimes I can't help but thinking if it had worked in the beginning, we'd already have a baby now and even possibly one more on the way. It's a bummer, but just remember that there's a plan for you. I'm so sorry to hear this, I know how heart breaking it can be. You'll be in my thoughts!

  3. sweetheart i am so sorry! i know it's tough. i personally don't know, but i have had many family members go through this. and you know what, they have had many kids after the miscarriage. i know your heart must be breaking. i know your time will come. i will keep you in my prayers. love you!

  4. I'm so sorry that is hard. But never forget how much your heavenly father loves you! He has a plan for you and things happen when they are suppose to and all in due time.

    If you need anything at all I'm always here 801.687.0982

    Love You!